Cystic
A series of photos "Cystic" was taken in the summer of 2018 during the agonizing wait for the results of cytology.

At first I didn't feel anything, then my left breast got bigger, then it hurt and a bruise appeared. It all happened very quickly. The first doctor I came to scared me terribly, saying that in addition to a cyst the size of a chicken egg, neoplasms appeared inside. But she didn't say what to do with it. I had to look for another doctor. He ordered a surgery to remove the cyst and neoplasms. Everything that was extracted from the breast was sent for cytological analysis.

Fear, denial, emptiness, anger, pain — that's all I experienced for 3 weeks waiting for the results of the examination. I was looking for a way out, and documenting my feelings and my body helped me get through the endless waiting and horror. What if I have THIS diagnosis?

Gray photos reflect my stay in the gray zone of unknowing, uncertainty and expectation.

Warsaw, 2018

Dying beauty
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20x30cm
2018, Warsaw
It was never been so big
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40x30cm
2018, Warsaw
Surgery
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30x20cm
2018, Warsaw
Blue
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2018, Warsaw