The "Control Attempt" project about living through trauma and trying to regain control of my life.
The events of 2020 in Belarus first caused shock, and then came the realization of the trauma, that you need to work with in order to continue living on. And a series of abstract paintings became a metaphor for how I live through this trauma, looking for my way out of the black hole to reality.
The project arose from an artistic practice in which I try to maintain the illusion of control over the liquid paint spreading across the canvas, not allowing it to escape beyond the form I idealize, to keep it within the boundaries of the canvas. This is my kind of meditation, an attempt to find balance in a certain period of time. But as in life, it is impossible to gain 100% control, so there is a lot of room for chance in painting.
The repeated repetition of the same actions - the rotation of the canvas with liquid paint on it — makes the artistic process routine. Just like with feelings, constantly returning to emotional pain makes it an everyday part of life, makes it possible to move further.